back in black

Ok, so I am back after not blogging for quite some time. New things in my life....stress stress and more stress. I have seen more doctor in the last few weeks than I care to think about. I have had back problems, headaches, stomach problems etc etc....nothing wrong but stress. What is causing all this stress??? Indecision. I have decided that not being sure about something is worse than knowing something bad. Because if you have clear information-even if it is not pleasing information you can react..but to when you are unsure you have to dwell on the what ifs. It's the what-ifs in life that will kill us.
Example- theoretical of course
I hate my job, my boss is a jerk....need the salary, job market is sucky...what do I do???
What makes me happy? What job would I like? I DONT KNOW: I know I don't like what I have but I don't know what I want.....this is the worst possible situation for anyone to be in.
Because your own indecision makes you angry at yourself but you feel impotent so you blame others for your lack of happiness, satisfaction yadda yadda yadda....

Happiness....it's a path and not a destination!

Happy Halloween

Weekends in The Country with Maddy Moo

FILL ME UP BUTTERCUP

I absolutely love this song. It reminds me of my college room mate Misty who used to love to sing it when we were getting ready to go out. I was talking to a friend the other day about what a crazy time I had in college-- there were some not so great things, but for the most part I had a FANTASTIC time. I don't remember lots of it...lots of this, and a little bit of that- but we rocked out....I have been feeling very nostalgic lately for these days and others even further back. Who knows why- I am not involved in a project and that is a problem for me. I need to create something new .... snaps for N who has created Lost and Found Hound for lost and recovered animals....recently I spent some time with my long lost cousin Kevin and he shared some k-nowledge with me....TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE YOU HAVE TO CHANGE YOUR MIND. This is very insightful and I am trying to do this- but it is harder than you think... to be continued....

IT'S FRIDAY IT'S FRIDAY

I have been horribly neglecting my blog - but I have a good excuse- all that is new in my life is an overwhelming amount of work.....YUCK! Last night as I was making tomato sauce - out of fresh tomatoes and various other ingredients I was wondering to myself it I would like to be a chef- low key - do cooking lessons etc ....hmmm I am so like Otis of K & S that it is incredible...except for somethings.. I mean I have two emotions - antsy and testy, maybe I am hyperactive, but if so I am the laziest hyperactive person I have ever met. I have no idea what I want out of my life, what truly makes me happy- besides Madison and champagne and dark chocolate..... I loved teaching and am sorry that I don't do it anymore - financial needs prevail, but hopefully one day I will find a way to make this professional valued by others in a more economical way. It's too bad I am not

1. Independently wealthy
2. Married to someone who is independently wealthy
3. In a situation where those around me are not concerned about money

However, this is not the case. I have to get back to work now as I my 60 minutes of lunch are up. Hopefully over the weekend I can catch up and put some more photos on from our Sicilian holiday.

More pics from the family trip

Eating watermelon at the OSTERIA DEI PAZZI in Florence

Hayes in the fountain at the Spanish Steps in Rome!!! (he was removed by an Italian Policeman!)

Family Trip to Italy 2007

Mister cool showing off in his Babbo's shades at the PAZZI


On top of Mount Etna in the midst of old lava flow - very exciting and exhausting (it was only about 104 ° that day!)


Feeling good in the stroller Night out with the famiglia in front of the Trevi Fountain